Sigh

ok… I haven’t posted.  I’ve avoided.

I’ve thought about it, but then would quickly get distracted with something else.

SO – Here is a quick update… because I NEED this to work.

I’ve even thought about posting pictures and making a video and putting it all out there for the world to see, therefore holding me accountable.

I’m not there yet.

BUT

I am feeling better.  the cold has packed its bags.

I am out of excuses.

I’m moving forward.  More to come soon

weekend

SOOO.. I feel better!  WOO HOO!

I walked ALL over the MacDill AFB on Saturday watching the planes, sky divers and then the Blue Angels… and since I did it with very little sleep AND a hangover… that counts as exercise… right??

And tonight, I walked on the treadmill for a mile!  I will do it again in the morning.

and… I am not EVEN going to talk about diet!

Just saying…  Maybe I’ll be better tomorrow

Getting Better

OK, So the vise that was attached to my head has been removed.  WOO HOO!  Next step is to find the wrench to turn off the snot faucet in my head (which I hope will also stop the flow into where I keep coughing this stuff up from!)  So now after those tasty visuals… dinner…  Just kidding…

The good news is that I ate breakfast, lunch and dinner today (and salad for dinner) – no, no, no – the world is not going to end!  I’m just trying to be good!

AND, about 1:30 this morning, I was feeling guilty as I sat here reading blogs (on my ‘exercise chair’) – So I pulled out my exercise mat, did some AB routines and some leg kicks… not the greatest workout and definitely not at the best time, but better than nothing!

I have a chair like this BTW:

uh oh

Ok… so I skipped a day writing in this blog.

On purpose.

So I will give you a quick synopsis of why…  Yesterday, my neighbor couldn’t work out…  she can’t today either…  so I have to do it today on my own… actually, I need to pretend I’m doing every day on my own and if she or someone else is here, great, if not – then I will at lest be working out…  That is hard.

Secondly, this cold has kicked my butt…  Do I need to go into intricate detail and explain how having VERY SORE ABs hurts????  I did an intense workout on them Tuesday and I think they hate me… They were very happy in their relaxed state.    BUT they hurt even MORE when you are coughing all the time!!   A lot.

So that is it for my pity party right now.. if I workout or actually eat something today – I will write a post tonight

Good news

I am officially back on the workout track!  Did an intense AB routine and some cardio this morning!  WOO HOO!

OH OH – and I ate breakfast, and a snack…  though its 3:33 and I haven’t eaten lunch.. again… baby steps people!

Also, and I can’t believe I did this… I asked a friend I used to work with:  when, where and how long the next marathon he plans to do is…

NOW THAT IS SCARY!

Of course, I am only 1 % geared toward running…  but since I’m usually at about  a negative 20% – I feel like I’m making progress.

ok…

Tomorrow is the big day.  My neighbor will be coming over in the morning to start exercising!

I’m a little worried.

I can already feel my lungs moaning.  That is not a good thing right?  I need to get those bad thoughts out of my head!  Forge forward.  Get excited.  Try my hardest.  DO it!

I think these last couple of days have brought home to me the importance of having someone to do this with.  And while I have had some good cheering from the people online (Sally you are awesome!) It is so easy to walk away from the computer and feel like working out or not eating those cookies, but it is quite another to follow through…

#justsaying

We all know that is true!  Only those crazy, weird, freak of nature people that have ALWAYS thrived on working out and being active – yeah, I mean you…  can just keep jumping up and go, go, go!!  Though i hear that when you do something for a certain number of weeks, it becomes a routine and you don’t feel like you have to put in any effort to do it.  That being said…

I cheered in school, I ran track, I played basketball, I played softball…  and I have NEVER enjoyed working out.  so what is the key?  what will get me over that hump?  what will make me enjoy it?

I am hoping the fact that I finally realize I need to look the way I feel with help keep me motivated, and seeing results will make me hate it less, and adjusting my attitude will make it fun and enjoyable!  Here’s hoping!

perfect

Now I know that I have procrastinated starting to work out until Monday…  But in all honesty, I thought maybe, just maybe, I might do something today.   I still might.  Highly doubtful, but it COULD happen.

At 11:15 last night, I almost got on the treadmill. Key word there, ALMOST…  I was gearing myself up, then I got distracted by something on the computer – probably a blog… and then next thing I knew, it was 2 am…  so no treadmill.

Then I woke up this morning sick.  congested. sick.  COME ON!!  It’s a beautiful day outside…  and my head feels like it’s in a vise!  Not fun.

For more gory details, and I apologize in advance for the visuals…  read my account here…  no need to rewrite it!

I’m still hoping that the great energy I have been experiencing lately will prevail today and I will feel productive on the exercise/diet front – Here’s hoping!

I did eat breakfast today… #babysteps

Day 3

I think I need to start over.  Mainly because I haven’t done anything yet.  Oh wait, I did eat breakfast today… but really, does that count?

I did not walk on the treadmill last night.  Maybe I need to rethink that plan… waiting until both hubby and son are tucked away in bed to work out?  Doesn’t seem like the best plan because when that time comes, I love to get on my computer and catch up on things!  ….and I’ll admit, I love just basking in the quiet time…

But I still need to figure this out.  Neighbor doesn’t want to start working out until Monday.  I assume though when she shows up at my house to work out – I will!   So Maybe I’ll start day 1 on Monday… see how I procrastinate?  I’m good at it.

Anyone have good advice on how to just do something??  that is SO easy to say, but so hard to do! LITERALLY.

Day 2

It is now day 2 of my journey.

Have I worked out?

NO!

But I have lost 2 pounds according to the scale.  I know that it is just because I haven’t eaten yet.  But I’m still hoping those 2 pounds stay away forever… I’m hiding from them and begging their friends to follow them into the wild abyss!

So now – here is one of the biggest problems I have in losing weight…  I find it very hard to eat before 2 pm.  I KNOW you need to eat breakfast.  I know you should kick your metabolism into gear by eating small meals all day.  YES, I KNOW THIS…

But, doing it is a different story.

My neighbor and I are going to start working out on Monday… and while that seems like a good procrastination (I’m good at that – you should read the post I just did at my main blog!)  Anyway…  Her father is in town and he is leaving Sunday – So we will start Monday morning…

I may start tonight though… we’ll see… I told my hubby last night that I think i will walk on the treadmill for an hour and read…  Combine exercise with the reading time I never seem to take anymore… combine the 2 things I need/love to do…  For the record… reading is my love, not walking on the treadmill!

But then I didn’t do it last night… So maybe I will tonight!

Beginning

I think I have a condition.  I need to ask a psychologist.  I don’t have anorexia – but I think I have the opposite.  Let me explain…  When I think of myself, whether walking around, driving in the car, whatever, – I see a very sexy, confident person.  Then I stop and look in the mirror and gasp!  Who in the hell is that?  So see, I have something wrong with me.  I need to fix that.  I need the person looking back at me in the mirror to match the person I feel in my head!

So now the hard part.  How to do that?  I’ve thought and thought.  I’ve fought the idea.  I begged my friends on Facebook to stop making me feel lazy for not exercising… but it hasn’t worked.  I need to get my sexy self back! Should I just write the blog?  Should I do videos of my progress, post pictures?  The thought of doing that makes me anxious!

I went to the doctor a few weeks ago and got my annual physical.  Seems my cholesterol is high, my Vitamin B levels are low and my Vitamin D levels are extremely low.  So I’m taking my vitamins, trying to get out in the sun a little more and sleeping better.  The result so far has been that for the last 2 days, I have SO much energy!  If I didn’t know better, I would swear I was on drugs.

Then today, my neighbor texted me to see if I wanted to start working out with her!  So I give in.  I’m gonna do it.  I’m going to get my body back! So I’ve decided that if I actually keep up this blog… I will have to be accountable.  I may only be accountable to myself, but that is ok….  Though I hope that other people chirp in and share, give advice, join in or just keep me going.  We’ll see – this is a new adventure for me.  Will you join me?  Subscribe to the blog…  let me know if you’d like to be an author on here or whatever!  I not only want my body back, I would like to also help anyone else who needs to take this same step, lift their foot and jump in!